Never Ending Cross Roads

Have you ever felt like you are always making decisions that could alter the course of your life? I may feel this way because I am a constant worrier or because maybe I take life a little too seriously. I suppose no matter the reason I cannot help but think that one wrong move and I will find myself on a path that will require a GPS recalculation. It is not a fun way to think or feel. I am working on my mindset but as usual it is a slow, less than desirable process. I want to be a good human and I want to make a difference. I think I have almost turned those two goals into burdens rather than things I want. These are my personal thoughts, and no one person or event caused my mindset. Sometimes I want to read a book, go to a seminar, or even just go to church and have my whole being changed and while that is completely possible, it has not happened yet. So, while I still hold out hope for a miraculous "wake up."  I have started making some small changes now to help this process and this summer I want to make some bigger changes. I would use a caterpillar analogy here but that seems a bit cliché even for the queen of clichés, me. I do wish I could go into a cocoon and not see other humans for a while but that is not how life works. One change I can talk about is not bringing my work home with me whenever possible. I am a high school math teacher and while you would think that I could leave my work at school, you would be incorrect. And some of it is physical work like grading and lesson planning, but most of it is mental and emotional. Hopefully, not bringing home the physical work will translate to leaving some of the less tangible things at school as well. Anyway, it is school night and we have a match tomorrow. Good night.