What If

That is the big question today and I think everyday of a human's existence. What if? We are facing that question with a lot today. My mother in law is in the hospital and there are no certainties. There are no promises of tomorrow. I think the hardest part is finding something to say that does not sound like you have lost your mind or your common sense. It has given a whole new meaning to "growing is not for sissies" My husband flies to North Carolina tomorrow and then we wait.

A Life Well Planned

I guess one of the best and worst parts of life is it does not always go according to plan. This week I even put a schedule on my dry erase board and it is not going according to "the plan." I am beginning to think that planning is merely a way of suggesting how you would like your life to go and if it goes that way great but if not well great. The ultimate paradox.

Now I am listening to wind blow under the doors and windows in our home. I know it is a sign of the changing of the seasons and I cannot describe how happy I am. I need a break from this hot weather. I want to get out side and run. Maybe Santa will be able to get me that bike this Christmas or maybe a tread mill. LOL

I hope everyone has a good Labor Day.

Sleeping Through Life

Today I feel like I have been and some times continue to be sleeping through life. I am so tired and it is on me to fix that but I keep doing things that do not help me at all. First, staying up late. Second, not taking my vitamins. I think tomorrow I will start this just a wee bit earlier and then I can type something worth reading. And stop sleeping through the rest of my life.

Monday

Someone said today that we should cancel Mondays but there is a issue then Tuesday becomes the problem. So, my thought is love everyday. There is no reason to waste a day fussing about what it is or is not. Today was not a terrible day anyway. It was a little long but any day can be long. I think if I say any more I will babble. I meant to do this earlier today but that did not happen. I will try it again tomorrow. Ciao!

Day Two

I am starting to really feel different about life. I wish I could explain all of the changes I feel. I am not sure if it is the birthday or knowing that I will be done with college soon. I hope some of the changes are permanent especially the good ones. I am also hoping that I do not pick up any bad habits but my cussing is picking up a little which makes me sad and angry but I am going to work on it. I hope to have some cooler things to say tomorrow but there is no guarantee of that either. We will see how this unfolds.

Day One, Year Thirty-Five

I think I have title a post like this before but I think this time I will stick with it. I am treating today like my new year's day. I am not sure how that will work but I am hoping it will help me turn over a new leaf. I think I finally have my room cleaned up there are little bits here and there that need cleaning up but for the most part everything is where I want it. Now, I could get myself where I want me that would be great. Until then I will keep trying.