What If

That is the big question today and I think everyday of a human's existence. What if? We are facing that question with a lot today. My mother in law is in the hospital and there are no certainties. There are no promises of tomorrow. I think the hardest part is finding something to say that does not sound like you have lost your mind or your common sense. It has given a whole new meaning to "growing is not for sissies" My husband flies to North Carolina tomorrow and then we wait.

A Life Well Planned

I guess one of the best and worst parts of life is it does not always go according to plan. This week I even put a schedule on my dry erase board and it is not going according to "the plan." I am beginning to think that planning is merely a way of suggesting how you would like your life to go and if it goes that way great but if not well great. The ultimate paradox.

Now I am listening to wind blow under the doors and windows in our home. I know it is a sign of the changing of the seasons and I cannot describe how happy I am. I need a break from this hot weather. I want to get out side and run. Maybe Santa will be able to get me that bike this Christmas or maybe a tread mill. LOL

I hope everyone has a good Labor Day.

Sleeping Through Life

Today I feel like I have been and some times continue to be sleeping through life. I am so tired and it is on me to fix that but I keep doing things that do not help me at all. First, staying up late. Second, not taking my vitamins. I think tomorrow I will start this just a wee bit earlier and then I can type something worth reading. And stop sleeping through the rest of my life.

Monday

Someone said today that we should cancel Mondays but there is a issue then Tuesday becomes the problem. So, my thought is love everyday. There is no reason to waste a day fussing about what it is or is not. Today was not a terrible day anyway. It was a little long but any day can be long. I think if I say any more I will babble. I meant to do this earlier today but that did not happen. I will try it again tomorrow. Ciao!

Day Two

I am starting to really feel different about life. I wish I could explain all of the changes I feel. I am not sure if it is the birthday or knowing that I will be done with college soon. I hope some of the changes are permanent especially the good ones. I am also hoping that I do not pick up any bad habits but my cussing is picking up a little which makes me sad and angry but I am going to work on it. I hope to have some cooler things to say tomorrow but there is no guarantee of that either. We will see how this unfolds.

Day One, Year Thirty-Five

I think I have title a post like this before but I think this time I will stick with it. I am treating today like my new year's day. I am not sure how that will work but I am hoping it will help me turn over a new leaf. I think I finally have my room cleaned up there are little bits here and there that need cleaning up but for the most part everything is where I want it. Now, I could get myself where I want me that would be great. Until then I will keep trying.

Funny Ain't Easy

I was trying think of something funny or witty to say this evening but I am coming up dry. And you know if you cannot laugh at your jokes not to many other people will either. Of course there is that off chance that you will be the only one laughing which I think is my problem tonight. The world around us is filled with so many depressing things it is nice to laugh some times. And I know that problems in the world are no laughing matter but I believe a laugh or smile could go a long way. So, on that note I will bid you good night and sweet dreams of a better future.

Soap Box Speeches

I had this grand plan to write this elaborate speech about being original. I realized that it has all been done before. It could have been a Facebook post or high school graduation speech. They tell us be original, to be you. And I guess that is the problem with climbing up on soap boxes. Most of the time people have nothing original to add to the discussion. They have no further insight into the issue at hand. I guess this is on my mind today because of the chaos that is our world now. There is a "missing" plane, planes that have been shot down, Israel at war with Hamas. And every Tom, Dick, and Harry has their solution to these issues or their take on why it is happening. Neither of which solve the problem or help the people in those situations feel any better. So, I now join the ranks of those sounding off about what we should do but I have only one suggestion stop talking and do it. Get out there and solve the issue, quit waiting for the other guy to do it. The End

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

Making decisions is all that we have been doing lately. Do I stay at my current university? Do I enroll at another one closer to the city? Do we move up to the city or stay here? Yes, being an adult is not for the indecisive. It is not that I do not want to make the decisions, I would like them to be a little less difficult. When I think I have made a decision something comes along and I start to doubt myself. I am sure this in not new to being human but I remember a time when I was not so self doubting but I also remember a time when I was even more doubtful. And I now have another person to consider when I make a decision, which complicates matters. I do not think that it is a bad deal, it is just new to me. Even after five years of marriage I have not gotten used to making decisions as a family. Anyway that is enough of that. As of this semester I am a senior! I cannot believe it! I maybe in a classroom sooner than I was thinking. Let us pray for my future students and myself. Let's change the world together.

Hi My Name is Michele and It Has Been Four Months Since My Last Post

It is eleven o'clock on a Saturday night and I am sitting with my MacBook on my old school desk wondering what should I write about today. I am drawing a blank. In my personal life there is not much to see. And when you look into the world there is so much to see. There is the fighting in Ukraine, the over two hundred kidnapped Nigerian girls, and the list goes on. It makes you think that whatever you have to say is not going change much. I am not having a pity party for myself, more like wondering where my place is in the violent, scary world. How to reconcile my happy go lucky life with the world around me. At eleven o'clock at night, I probably should be sleeping but the thoughts are still running through my mind.

Michele For President

I posted about this on our family blog but today I realized that this year I can campaign for President of the United States. I know this sounds silly but it is like a fulfillment of a dream. I thought when I was a kid, "one day I will be 'big' enough to run for President." Well, in seven months I will be 'big' enough. That is spectacular! Yes, I have not arrived spiritually but I have arrived as far as highest political office in the United States of America is concerned. If I knew there was even the slighted chance that I would win I would campaign but I am not sure that is possible. It would be an incredible ride and a story for the ages. I posted this message on Facebook "Do want to hear some great news? I am eligible to campaign to be President of the United States this year. WORNOCK 2016! Let's do this! Anyone want to be my Vice Presidential nominee?" I have a Vice President, Secretary of Defense, and a Secretary of Education so far. And you can add Secretary of Health and Human Services. This is great!

Love

I have been into these one word titles lately. I am not really sure why. But on the subject of love I do not have anything profound or even new to say. I am listening to music from iTunes on the JBL speaker that Karl got with his iPhone and I must say I "love" it. And it is not the speaker I love, it is like I am listening to music for the first time and I am falling in love with music all over again. Of course this love does not come ahead of God, Karl or other people. I guess I have not had a lot of time to listen to music that was not for church or chorus and I truly miss it. I think I may need a break after contest this year, if Spring break does not work. All that aside I love God, I love Karl, I love people and I LOVE music. There is a lot of love going around here.

When is Enough Too Much

This question has been on my mind a lot lately. I think about it when I am at church, at school, or at chorus. When have you volunteered for too much? How do you stop yourself? If anyone has the answer to the last question I would really like to know the answer. I keep thinking that I will stop and focus on maybe one thing at a time. I think school, church and chorus are not too much but volunteering to teach, sing, be in leadership, etc. can be too much because I am not a focused person. I really want to plan but then I think what if they need me at church or what if we have something at chorus I can help with. Yeah, I plan around what other may or may not need me to do. Hopefully, with some prayer and reflection I will get this all figured out.

175

That is how many posts I have made on this blog not counting this post. That amazes me. I wish I could say that all one hundred and seventy five had some great life lesson or that they were well written and profound but I know this is not the case. I am lucky if they are grammatically correct and make even the smallest bit of sense. I did get my "office" cleaned up today. You can see a bit of organization and the floor which is a start in the right direction.

I posted on one of my other blogs about anger. I have seen a lot of it this week which is not cool. I guess I see it all the time but I never really pay attention and this week my mind was very focused. No one is immune to it but the level was up this week.

Anyway, here is one hundred and seventy five posts and hopefully that many and more to come.

I am Ready for the Weekend

I am so ready for this week to come to a close. It has not been a bad week but I am ready so sit back and relax. Maybe catch up on some movies and watch some old favorites again. I do have some work around the house to do which is not a big deal but I am ready for it to be done. I am hoping to get it all done tomorrow and maybe get to rest on Saturday. Because Sunday will be a whirlwind of fun especially with dinner after church. We are not going to see much of home. But we will make it work. Good night!

Back to School

Tomorrow I head back to school for class. I am excited, nervous, etc. This will be my fourth semester of school. I know it is totally crazy. I cannot believe it has been that long. And because of school tomorrow this entry is going to be really short. I need to get to bed so I can wake up refreshed and ready to go. My first class starts at 0930. So not too terribly early but early enough.


PS I did not post yesterday because there was a fatal accident on the way home from rehearsal. We got home after midnight. Please pray for everyone involved and their families.

I Just Do Not Understand Some Things

I will keep this short but I just do not understand people. One minute they are asking for prayers and blessings, etc. The next they are calling people they do not know ugly and hateful names. And wonder why they have issues. That is all I am going to say about that but it really just bothers me.

The Adventures of an Old Young Couple

Today we went to the city. I promise you, if you were a fly on the wall you would have sworn we were an old couple. We complained about the traffic, the weather, etc. I love days like that. It makes me realize that being comfortable with each other is better than being perfect. We did have a really good time though. I even got my computer fixed at the Apple store and it did not cost a thing. That was a really good bonus. My camera had been jarred loose and it was an easy free fix. Yippee for Apple. But it just reinforces my point that I need a better computer bag, which I hope to purchase soon. Other than that it has been a slow day. Football and pizza, this evening. Church in the morning. This is the life.

It Finally Happened

My husband has finally won a game of UNO. We have played for the last four years and he finally won. He did not get to enjoy it long because I really wanted to cry. It was sort of anti-climatic after all of these years. Of course we had not played in at least a year or longer which is truly weird. In the past we played all the time. I really miss it. I hoping we will play again tomorrow. Maybe we can try Phase 10. On a side note, I read some of my old journals looking for a list I made about eleven years ago. I can completely see why I was given a bipolar diagnosis. I was high as a kite one minute and below the ground the next. I never realized how crazy I must have sounded. Good Night!

What is Real Love

I am listening to Reba McEntire and totally falling in love with her music again. I was thinking about my husband and what it is about him that I love. I love that he goes crazy over football, that loves his truck, and that he lets our dog sleep on him when he falls asleep on the couch. I love making plans with him and not making plans. I love to see him light up when he realizes we have nothing to do but be together. I guess it took almost five years of marriage to realize that real love is not what you see on television or read it in a book. It just is. You cannot make it or buy it. I thought in the past I had found love but I realize now what I found back then was not even close. He is part of the two that makes the one that is us. I hope I never lose that love.

Year Seven

I was just looking back to see when I started this blog . . . 2007. This year will make seven years that I have had this blog. I think that means I have blogging since before it was "cool." Although, I did not invent blogging. (yes, a gab at Al Gore) Seven years and you know I have no idea where they have gone. I am excited about blogging this year I am hoping to share a few things that make people laugh, maybe cry but overall help them see that they are not alone. Of course, I have been known to go on a tirade or say things that probably only make since to me. Hence the name Shelly's Southern View. I think that is what makes us all human, our thoughts, our dreams, and our ideas. Here is to a new year!